Rantings from 2014

This post was written sometime between the end of 2013 and the first of 2014. I don't want to lose what I wrote, so I am posting it now. So much "water under the bridge"...


     Last year was a building up of emotions in me that took a turn around the end of the year. The month of May was the first year anniversary of mom's death. It was hard to go through all the special days, birthdays, holidays, etc. for the first time without being able to share them with mom. June and July were the months that we used to empty the Alexandria house and get it sold. Phillip came down to spend the last weeks of July with me in Alexandria and helped me clear the house for sale. 

     The house was sold at the end of July. Thank You Lord Jesus! I spent the next few months doing paperwork involved, dividing up the proceeds of the sale, closing the checking account we used to pay the bills, etc. It doesn't sound like much as I write it, but it was emotionally draining as well as time consuming...

     I could feel myself needing to take a break, and I wanted to get away before school started again and we would be committed to caring for Kara. September passed and we were almost through October when I just knew if I didn't get away, I would explode. The signs were there, I just don't feel like any of the family living with me saw them. I was feeling sorry for myself!

     Anyway, at the end of October, there was a church gathering for a weekend in Percy Quin State Park in Mississippi.  I knew I was not going to return home from that weekend. My goal was to travel away from home for a few weeks. So, Harry and I took off to Tennessee to see Joe and Wanda and all the sights between. We had a sweet time with Joe and Wanda (it wasn't long enough), and we drove down to the Gulf of Mexico for a few days.

     Sitting and looking at the Gulf, walking the beach, listening to the waves, being quiet without any plans, helped to center myself again. I was able to return to Baton Rouge and pick up life where we left off.

     That was the middle of November.  Then came December...