Rantings from 2014

This post was written sometime between the end of 2013 and the first of 2014. I don't want to lose what I wrote, so I am posting it now. So much "water under the bridge"...


     Last year was a building up of emotions in me that took a turn around the end of the year. The month of May was the first year anniversary of mom's death. It was hard to go through all the special days, birthdays, holidays, etc. for the first time without being able to share them with mom. June and July were the months that we used to empty the Alexandria house and get it sold. Phillip came down to spend the last weeks of July with me in Alexandria and helped me clear the house for sale. 

     The house was sold at the end of July. Thank You Lord Jesus! I spent the next few months doing paperwork involved, dividing up the proceeds of the sale, closing the checking account we used to pay the bills, etc. It doesn't sound like much as I write it, but it was emotionally draining as well as time consuming...

     I could feel myself needing to take a break, and I wanted to get away before school started again and we would be committed to caring for Kara. September passed and we were almost through October when I just knew if I didn't get away, I would explode. The signs were there, I just don't feel like any of the family living with me saw them. I was feeling sorry for myself!

     Anyway, at the end of October, there was a church gathering for a weekend in Percy Quin State Park in Mississippi.  I knew I was not going to return home from that weekend. My goal was to travel away from home for a few weeks. So, Harry and I took off to Tennessee to see Joe and Wanda and all the sights between. We had a sweet time with Joe and Wanda (it wasn't long enough), and we drove down to the Gulf of Mexico for a few days.

     Sitting and looking at the Gulf, walking the beach, listening to the waves, being quiet without any plans, helped to center myself again. I was able to return to Baton Rouge and pick up life where we left off.

     That was the middle of November.  Then came December...

Another Two Years

Well, another two years have almost passed, and once again I am commenting on how I haven't posted anything.  You would think I am so busy, I don't have time to stop to write anything...WRONG...

Yes, I do have things to do on a daily basis, but I still have time to write my thoughts down for everyone to be bored with, but, aren't you lucky that I am lazy!

Any way, lets see what has happened in the last two years... Harry and I have a few more great grandchildren. We are up to 9.  And we have been told of  #10 and waiting for the announcement of #ll. Our family is growing...

This past year, I woke up one morning and couldn't stand. My right leg and right arm were unable to hold me up.  I didn't think too much about it, but within a few minutes of being up and sitting in my chair, I figured it would be a good idea to let a doctor tell me I was ok. So, off to the hospital ER. 

After a quick CAT scan of my brain, I was transferred to a hospital intensive care unit with a brain surgeon watching to see if he was needed. My brain had a bleed in the portion that controlled my right side and was usually associated with high blood pressure.  I am on medication for BP and was well within safe limits, so we don't know why it happened.   Anyway, a few days in hospital, tests to show no more bleeding, therapy to regain use of my arm and leg, and they sent me home. A few months of weekly visits to physical therapy and I am a "fixed" woman. 

My new normal is a few degrees less that where I was before the stroke, but I am doing ok.  When I am tired, I start to drop things, stumble, etc., but basically, I am ok.

We now have a teenager living with us.  Kara turned thirteen and hormones began to rage. I have no words to describe how I feel about her new personality, but am so glad her mother is here to deal with her. I hate hearing the way this teen speaks to us and her mother. I can feel my nerves start to "jitter", and I just want to get out... It's a shame I am the one that has to leave my own home, but I really don't want to deal with more stress. No real answer to current situation, but I guess a few hours away is better than hearing it all... This situation causes me to turn to my spirit and do a lot of praying for all of us.

And in the end, that is all we are supposed to do. Trust in the Lord, speak to Him in all situations, about all things...wait on His answer. Be sure to listen to His speaking, say "amen, Lord", be His testimony on the earth, grow and mature in the Body of Christ, pray...pray...pray.